Confessions of a Twin Momma

[...] you forever, I'll like you for always, as long as I'm living my baby you'll be..." Baby boys, you are are our whole entire world.  You are everything to us and always will be.   [...]

[...] future continues to hold beautiful things...blessings from heaven...from my angels.  I love you, baby boys. Onto a year of seconds...and hopefully some more firsts...good firsts. [...]

[...] There are no words for the length of time I have been missing my baby boys....just that I've been missing them for too long and know that I will continue to miss them.  [...]

[...] because despite having children in the future...that future will always be missing my baby boys the way they should have existed. I feel angry.  I feel hurt.  And I feel lonely.  I don' [...]

[...] my baby every day of his or her life. But the truth is...when I do finally bring that baby home, I know that it will be a new set of challenges.  It won't be easier, it will just be [...]

[...] .  But I'm hoping against all hope that I'm pregnant for 3 more months and bringing my baby home within 3 days…no long hospital stays! Today is a doctor's appointment.  I'm nervous.  I [...]

[...] .  I haven't even had time to think straight!  Between learning what it's like to bring a baby home and watch him grow as well as going back to work and balancing being a mom and an employee, [...]

[...] I like to think that Cam and I are our boys legacy.  That the people we have become...the things we do.  Those represent our boys.  For me, I feel [...]

[...] is still out there and we aren't giving up on biological children, but if we have one healthy pregnancy and baby, we won't put my life or that of an unborn child at risk again.  And if that never [...]

[...] of the family.  I'm not sure she quite understands what it will mean when she's not the baby anymore.  But she's the center of Cam's world and I love her quite a bit, too. ;) We've also got [...]

[...] to meet with the doctor, without telling me anything. The doctor told us that I have a placental abruption.  Small.  In my case it's a blood pocket/clot behind the placenta that has caused the [...]

[...] quite busy for us lately, but we're getting there! On Valentine's Day we went in for our follow-up ultrasound and check-up at 18 weeks.  The best news we got was that the abruption that I had at 15 [...]

[...] a brief ultrasound, the radiologist came in to tell us it looked like I could have a potential placenta previa, where the placenta grows over the cervix.  The doctor told us that there was nothing [...]

[...] not to cry.  Not to break down.  I still struggle seeing women pregnant.  Hearing pregnancy announcements.  Half the time I just want to scream.  Other times I just want to shake those [...]