Monkeys In My Minivan

[...] others don't?  I don't have the answer.  I'm heartbroken for those who live on, when their family member or friend takes their own life.  I feel like I have a bit of a glimpse of what was going on [...]

[...] next couple hours.  I woke up with a huge headache, but feeling calm but exhausted ... panic attacks really drain my whole energy.  About that time, my visiting teacher called.  She had [...]

[...] the "what-ifs" very quickly, or I quickly work myself into a series of sobbing panic attacks and hatred for what I tried to do. For those who are survivors of someone who has  [...]

[...] !  SweetPea turned ONE!!!!  There's just a month left until summer vacation.  Our Bernese Mountain dog, Dakota, is due with puppies in 2 weeks (and has her very own blog now, lol!)  Plus, [...]

[...] On May 16th, our Bernese Mountain Dog, Koda, had 9 puppies!  It's been a busy 5 weeks since then. Its so much work, but so [...]

[...] Baby SweetPea with Ginny-bunny, her brother's holland lop. [...]

[...] and 3 children were to being in that situation.  And SweetPea ... don't even remind me that baby SweetPea would have never been part of my life.  I try very hard not to dwell on the "what ifs& [...]

[...] Warning: This post talks very bluntly about depression and suicide. If you have intrusive thoughts, or have thought about suicide, DO NOT READ THIS, call your doctor or 911 immediately. [...]

[...] , but he didn't answer.  I sobbed more and more, and the darkness started to take over.  Intrusive thoughts began taunting me, and my mind kept repeating: "I can't do this anymore. Can't I just [...]

[...] feeding her or getting concerned over whether or not a toy is "baby-safe".  And SweetPea adores them too - they can get her laughing uncontrollably, she wants to be just like them, be in [...]

[...] I can't believe my lil SweetPea is going to be ONE tomorrow.  Its so bittersweet - I know that the next stage is so very fun, [...]

[...] THIS, call your doctor or 911 immediately. National Suicide Hotline: 1-800-273-8255 Depression Sucks A lifetime ago, I blogged about my PPD and suicide attempt.  In reality, it was 7 years ago, but [...]

Yesterday, we dropped Koda off to a breeder's house (hopefully we'll have some puppies come May!)  We loved being back up in the higher elevations, n [...]

Warning: This post talks very bluntly about depression and suicide. If you have intrusive thoughts, or have thought about suicide, DO NOT READ THIS, [...]